8.11.2023 (short hike)

went 釣魚翁 for a short hike with v. passed by silverstrand and that little palm beach neighborhood that of cos reminded me of u. then went to hanghau Yata. these days no matter where i go i always keep an eye for u. i know how difficult it is to bump into someone in a big city like this but i just always want to see u.

back to studio at night to record Nic Tsui guitar for gigi song. her song is about the pain of separating with someone very important to her. i didnt tell her how tht topic is relatable to me.

for a period of time, i have been finding it difficult to understand how u could do this. how u could leave me there to endure the cut off, someone who has never done a thing with bad intention to u, someone who poured his heart inside out n all the love he is capable of into you. now it has become a bit less difficult to me. real love should not be conditional. whatever u decide is best for u and us, i should respect. respecting ur freedom to do what you prefer is the least i should do as an act of love. of cos it feels like death to me, but i will stay hopeful. you didnt give me options, but i made my choice to keep hoping for sth better than this for us. i made the choice to keep believing and trying, with patience. i have witnessed how connection could withstand challenges. i know ours is better than this. call me stubborn but im proud to be a stubborn scorpio. no matter what at least put up a good fight. i dont mean to intrude