29.11.2023 (today so many entries)

so im glad i hav a few sensible + sensitive frds who gave me gd advice, including canaan (cos i was in that Renaissance camp when u told me the news) and she was the only person i know more. then jace and chanka. all without mentioning names of cos. today i suddenly had all the enlightenment, n hav a clearer mind. counting from the beginning of august that's around 4 months / 120 days.... took me that long to look at this more sensibly (or rationally). Tho the sentimental part is still ever so strong, i can see better the core of the issue what i should do now. would've been better if i figured this out earlier. all these days i have not much idea how u are doing, but u seem doing great, which im glad to see. now i understand more why. doesnt change the fact that i still want to be frds with u, i guess learning to be honest is my first step. thank u.