29.10.2023 (make a wish)

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wonder if u might rmb it's my bday? I'd surely rmb urs cos it's one of my important passwords now 😌

my bday wish is: good health for all my family n friends (and u of cos 💟 and ppl that matter to u), and I made a wish about us (guess what I wished for😌)

today v did some nice things gotta give her the credit. She planned some outing but I had to rush work so could only go out for dinner. She secretly asked my parents n sis to join so I was really happily surprised. also her attitude to my parents is much better this time. so i appreciate the efforts to change. Turns out me expressing my complaints did help, I'm sure on your side you probably solved a lot of issues between u two also by talking things out.

of cos it's not like I'm fully confident in being with her now. I still can't get over all the things that are way better or easier between us. I'm still trying to express / articulate how I feel.

another thing that made me happy was, my DGS ex sent me a bday msg. after our incident I was breaking down n I had no one to reach out to. one of the ppl I tried to talk to was her, on WhatsApp.

she has experienced similar things in her marriage too. hers lasted for 5 years and was never exposed. I dun agree entirely with her advices but she's able to understand and empathise with my situation. we haven't seen each other since we were like 22.

I said it means a lot that she still rmbs my bday and that we could calmly talk to each other now. she said how can she not rmb, and that its indeed a blessing that we can now. Rmb how I said u connect with me like this DGS ex, except even stronger? I reli believe in us.