27.10.2023 pt 2 (要改善自己先對得住你曾經的寵愛）

chrisnung

Oct 28, 2023

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after haircut yesterday, as I was walking in Kwun Tong back to studio, I realized one thing. I should not rely on you to solve my problems. It's true u r like an angel cleaning up all my anxiety by drowning me in ur love. but as a grown up I'm supposed to handle my anxiety with or without a person like u.

indeed for past few months I often felt like I don't want to live anymore. but then it is not ur job to help me deal with anything. If anything ur priority must be urself and him. it is not forgetting that helps me heal. It is not being angry or depressed that helps me heal. It is love for u that helps me heal.

n I guess somehow love for myself too. I gotta live up to the standard of my favourite person's lover. 做你(曾經)很愛的人，要有番一定質素先對得住你的品味 right

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