27.11.2023 (did i jus mess up)

你說這兩星期感覺很美好，我是否都應該少一點emo？

這一刻只知道，努力工作、努力創作、努力成長

雖然照樣 3am都未訓。繼續希望吧。 went back Fairview home to sleep. naturally kept thinking about calling u. so i sent a DM. then i got blocked on the other accounts as well :(( felt really sad when i saw it. but i guess i know you dont want to see anything from me. i was dumb to do that. :(( sigh

it's easy to know that cutting off is what u want, but it's extremely hard for me. at least not to bother is what i must do. i hope you would know that i'd always still care. dunno how to express my sadness :( my brain kept saying 'i dont wanna live', but i know living is the only chance i have to fix this. id give it my best attempt. sorry i probably used some wrong ways like trying to get ur attention. sending u DM is really very disrespectful and 7. -__-

this is probably the very very very tough lesson that i need to have. i hate not having the chance to communicate, but when u dont want to communicate, that's sth i need to learn to respect too.