27.10.2023 (Lil Ashes at APA)

glad to see u at APA. didn't expect to watch a show tgt like this.

knew there is a gd chance u'd to be here. didn't know how I should act but shouldn't avoid it jus becos of that I guess. or maybe, I even wanted to see u, even at a distance

(Sorry today post a bit long)

first impact was big, avoided direct eye contact tho I really would want to look at u.

this spot so familiar it was where we met after my sunset show.

I sat on ur right side in the row behind. didn't look too much to ur side but a few times I see you grooving ur head.

reli good show. reminded me also of watching u guys here. great sound, nice fun stage design, tight arrgt n performance.

maybe there is a chance u didn't see me? I dunno... supposedly u should... but in case u didn't it could be a good thing. I wouldn't want to endure the transparent glance..

the kind of encounter id want to have is one where we could look each other in the eye with kindness

pollie invited me to the show n said chanka would go too so they sat us tgt, n then there was paula from Sony, whom I felt wasn't reli on same channel.

left the venue fast after the show, not that I don't want to see u, but seeing u in such circumstance might be strange I guess... n I don't wanna see how u would behave in such setting

anyways it's still a little magical n soothing to be at the same show with u, bobbing heads tgt at a not too long distance.

for life updates, these few days been stressing over Tone Music award jobs, have to make a jingle and an opening music track for them. turns out not too bad I hope, hopefully wouldn't waste the sleepless nights

had a nice haircut today at Pi Garden Kwun tong. Hairstyling was a nice jap style guy he said he was also musician so we had quite some topics to talk about... I think I'd like to find him next time too. He explained how I should make use of my natural curl.

then went to search for things to wear tmr... end up bought an initial blazer which I liked a lot but is overpriced. I regret not doing the buy n return trick... they gave me a 10% n I took it, so no free return. I was ashamed to say "oh then I prefer to pay full price n keep return option". costly lesson learnt. it's good to be conscious of the problem tho I guess.

when we were good I would rarely feel jealous regarding him. these days sometimes I would a bit (which is very normal I guess?) but then my rational self would ask: "would I prefer u guys don't work and u be sad, or u be happy with him?" Then I think I prefer u to be happy. to be fair u guys dedicated years of working tgt, u work well tgt n u both deserve to be happy.