23.12.2023 (我會選擇做妳個暖爐)

had production meeting with Ivanhoe at his Prince Edward super decent cool studio, for our upcoming collab. suddenly his speaker was playing your song, and he said he got sth to work with u guys later. i know bfsh place is right above him.

2nd Mercury Recalls vinyl set tonight. much less stressed but not many ppl in the restaurant. i still had some fun tho. good as practice i think at least. i brought two cassettes of my own, one Michael Jackson Thriller, another is Gold by Frank Sinatra. sophy booked a table n invited voel n jaytse as sort of hing gung for her album. played many nice oldies and jazz cos i feel that's the vibe for xmas. i actually am still updating the "Forbes" playlist occasionally. dunno if u might notice. every day routine includes checking your IG, quietly and softly, and writing this journal. seems dou gd for my mental health. wonder if u still write ur diary?

a few days after 19 dec (when i told v what happened). still try to talk to her every night. she still cries but the talk is getting relatively more peaceful. i understand time is required to let her go through the emotions. i really dunno how things will go but i try to give things a little space and continue to learn about myself n her.

did i mention that DGS grace sent me my kid singing cassette by post? a symbolic return of my inner child to me. even with her, the feeling of connection still stays after so many years. the feeling with you was even a lot stronger. so i guess it would easily last til the end of my life. no worries tho. im not feeling anxious of clingy or depressed or "attached". im jus feeling a kind of love towards that's not too painful or "sad" to me. it's like... i dunno what analogy would be appropriate. maybe like how i love music. u are a feeling. u are a scent. u are a voice.