20.2.2024 (untitled)

finally feeling less sick today. went out to Kwun Tong by bus, to pick up SF and also go to the bank to deposit laisee banknotes. every time i pass by How Ming street i'd look around in case i see u. today i think i passed by Terry Tsui Ho. so i guess it's not impossible to bump into someone around there. the thing is i dun even know if you still go teach there.

anyways. seems u had a nice 'b-day' trip in taipei. happy for u. seems i could assume that he'd been nice to u, n u guys been nice to each other. so i should be happy for u.

if i try to stand in u or his shoes more, i think i can get that it would be quite different, becos he sort of knows me so the impact is probably more 'direct' n 'real'. in my case i have told v about wht happened but not about who u are.

i know i could not expect anything from u. u hv been very nice to me. i can only try to be a better version of myself n be good to ppl around me. i hope u would know how much i wish to talk to you. but i also understand all the reasons why u would not want to. life is always complex. n that's why it's challenging.