15.11.2023 (night chat with ernest n billy, sai lo)

Yiu Fai collab

got some nice progress on Yiu Fai collab album today. my approach now is to work bit by bit on the 11 pieces, revising one and then jumping to another. This allowed me to have an overview of the whole thing and also more efficient since I don't have to be stuck on one for too long. need more practice to get better at creating original materials Unexpected chat with Ernest and Billy tonight Ernest of Trial n Error n his friend Billy came to studio to discuss an Uber Taxi advert song. then somehow chungsuet texted Ernest n asked him to ask me about my government work n history... so i talked a bit about HKU, CASH contest, working at govt n quitting for berklee. n when i talk about how i started taking music seriously, i had to mention about sai lo. they also shared some personal stories about why they want to make music.

didnt expect to wet my eyes, when i told them i quitted the job becos i think sai lo would be proud to see me pursue my real dreams. then on the way home, sitting alone on a bench at Tiu King Leng station, i thought about making songs about sai lo n then i cried. i told them in the studio, that i think it's a pity the world couldnt get to see sai lo's talent and greatness. he was just one step away from going abroad to study, and maybe he would be much happier and would be able to show the world the genius that he is. Billy said that his influence would still live on in the people that he influenced, including me. since he didnt have many friends, i feel i might be the person carrying the most influence from him. id feel shameful if i do not make good use of what he gave me. i feel the need to make him proud. every time i feel that part of him lives inside me, i'd be motivated to try harder in life.

back home, i told v i feel inspired to create my original stuff these days. her immediate response was 'can you pay more attention to me?', without a single word of response to what i just said. me honestly got a bit annoyed so i said why does everything need to be about u? and i told her this is perfect example of not listening. then soon she fell asleep. me tries to communicate my feelings... n me try to understand tht i cant expect her to be a perfect listener in my standard.. so i try explain more you u wouldnt know, when u offered to pui me visit sai lo, how many points that added to u. you will always be a special one to me. i hope and believe we will connect again somehow. until then u will live inside me rent-free