13.12.2023 (self-learning on anxiety)

a bit anxious tht i couldnt finish the N9 mix, but it's progressing well and im learning alot about mixing. learning to "punish" myself less with the guilt for disappointing people. sure it is my fault (or weakness) to not be able to deliver better, but blaming myself and letting anxiety attack me would only continue the vicious loop. so i learnt to go a bit easier on myself, allow myself to be disliked or to disappoint people sometimes, n prioritize my own rest before even people's important deadlines.

saw u saying u 大病初癒, dunno if tht's a metaphor or u reli got sick. indeed it's easy to catch cold recently, hope u r well