12.12.2024 (may i share some real feelings here?)

i feel abandoned

i know it's not 'right' to feel this way.

but the pain is the feeling of being abandoned

u have zero responsibility over my feelings

n u have every right to do whatever u want

i guess God has His grand plans, He always does. and who am I to expect anything

u r probably thinking things are already turning out the best way

maybe

now im sitting here alone in the studio (more decluttered and cleaned up by myself, than when you saw it) now im hit by this wave of sadness

should i be happy that i can feel all these emotions?

even after all this time

still learning about myself i guess