10.1.2024 (rehearsal at the Box for CCDC piece. netflix money heist)

almost whole day at The Box. happi to be able to pre-set everything more than a week ahead of the first show. wish you could be there to watch it. i dun get to do too much "music" stuff but a lot of soundscape design and playing with real objects. most fun is a rather large acryllic box in which i put plants and a very sensitive microphone, there r two holes for me to put my hands and small objects in to play with. in any case, regardless of my part, the dancers and stage design and lighting already makes it interesting to watch.

it is a piece that invites ppl to re-imagine the concept / experience of death / grief. glad to be part of it.

recently when im not working, or when im eating / showering, i watch Money Heist. actually knew it's good but never started it. i like the plot and the characterisation of the main actors. it's great how they manage to describe the complexity of each character without being too boring. i wonder if u hv watched and if u hv which character is ur favorite. some parts r perhaps too sentimental but it's good that it's not jus action and adrenaline but also talks about character n growth in depth. Nairobi is a very likeable character who is strong n responsible and sensitive and a great friend. thinking maybe u'd like her most. story between Denver and Moscow is touching too. Berlin is controversial but it's impressive that his character is very complex, like he has very dark and perverted to very warm and noble qualities.

seeing ur pics still makes me feel a lot of things, but still i cant help not checking how u r doing. i dun wanna disturb u in any way. but to be honest im still sad about not being able to talk to u, or to share to u how i hv changed / grown. this journal is the only thing i hv now.